Who Killed Janko?

[Dennis Ruhl]

How you used that information was devious. I supplied it to you as a warning to get the hell out of the whole scene since it was all very ugly. You decided to abuse that information. Take responsibility for your own actions, please. Your behavior on that matter convinced me, one last and final time, to trust no one with a confidence.

You're too modest. A chance to shaft Goose? You did well. You probably spent days finding the dirt. Don't shoot the messenger. Do you usually tip the delivery boy with abuse. I'm also modest. You deserve all the credit. I should feel hurt. I passed the info along to others never believing them to be so unscrupulous as to post it.

If I remember your concerns it was whether Goose was involved with nefarious activities but we know that to be untrue as Goose can't manage a website with an average of 2 viewers.

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[Dennis Ruhl]

And as for anyone who feels they need "answers" or even a heartfealt apology from me:

They can just pick up the phone, call me voice at (604) 219-4362, identify themselves, and get what they're looking for from me the good old fashioned way.

That's long distance. Don't you have a 1-800 number for apologies?

[jackson]

Actually, Dennis:

In November 2006, as the result of multiple stressors, I suffered from an accute attack of paranoia brought on by an uncontrolled hypomanic episode. In classic style, I began to draw connections between things that were not there. Once I identified what was happening, I dropped it all, stepped back, and sought proper medical attention.

You, on the other hand, not identifying what was happening (for how could you have?) assumed I had some motive, when in fact the motive was my near complete psychic disintegration.

I'm fairly certain that Gus, Gollin, and others saw this coming in me for years, since I am a text-book high risk candidate for what happened to me. I suspect that Gus, Gollin, and others actually give a damn about these things, whereas I am more or less convinced that you, Larry, and your crew could care less and will likely use it as a source of your endless amusement. (Maybe not -- you may prove me wrong.)

I could continue to point a finger at you, but then three more fingers would point back at myself -- so I won't.

Have a nice day.

PS - Apology or amendment? Amended behavior involves correcting the wrong actions of the past. Which is why I have nothing to do with the DL world as such anymore, except to periodically return here to stand up when people bring my name into this shit. It's one thing to say, "I'm sorry" (which I am), but it's quite another to avoid repeating the mistakes of the past. I would hope for amendment and forgiveness, not apology and acceptance.

[jackson]

In fact, were you to email Peter French, with whom I have not had any contact for some years, he'd likely tell you he identified the risk of this happening to me as far back as 2001.

Fortunately for everyone concerned, it was identified and corrected.

All roads lead to Rome.

[jackson]

There - I saved you a few dollars for the call.

[Dennis Ruhl]

I'm fairly certain that Gus, Gollin, and others saw this coming in me for years, since I am a text-book high risk candidate for what happened to me. I suspect that Gus, Gollin, and others actually give a damn about these things, whereas I am more or less convinced that you, Larry, and your crew could care less and will likely use it as a source of your endless amusement. (Maybe not -- you may prove me wrong.)

What you're saying is that guys who try to build their reputation on causing hurt to people by exposing them as frauds? on the internet really care about you and the guys who spent years defending you don't care.

I have never attacked random people instead expressing difference of opinion with those that have a gripe with me. I can't recall initiating anything. Maybe you thought sticking a knife in Larry's back was okay but did you have to give it a twist? Posting a link to a publically available website is not my idea of a crime or even an outrage.

This forum, as with the others, is not real world. Perhaps you should avoid it. Defending yourself will only lead to more abuse. Not defending yourself will lead to eventual anonymity.

[jackson]

Yes, I should avoid it. I'm not defending myself. Simply explaining what really happened, and that it's very likley who saw it coming for years. I was on the path to becoming as crazy as a shithouse rat, and ultimately those who identified it, warned me about it, and (in hindsight, one can see) gave me some latitude because they saw what I did not ... well ... let's just say it turns out they weren't people I called 'friends' but who, in the long run, turned out to be the one's with some empathy and understanding in the end despite my behavior. Those who claimed to give a shit turned out to have no substance beneath their surfaces.

Live and learn.

[ham]

In November 2006, as the result of multiple stressors, I suffered from an accute attack of paranoia brought on by an uncontrolled hypomanic episode. In classic style, I began to draw connections between things that were not there. Once I identified what was happening, I dropped it all, stepped back, and sought proper medical attention. -...-
it turns out they weren't people I called 'friends' but who, in the long run, turned out to be the one's with some empathy and understanding in the end despite my behavior. Those who claimed to give a shit turned out to have no substance beneath their surfaces.

See...
coffee gives me TERRIBLE heartburn if drunk daily...at best I can drink one a week or a fortnight...not good, not bad: just the way I am.
I love coffee but learnt to stay away from it, or else.
You claim to be some expert in mathematics but your behaviour disproves it.
I will not discount that the interacting with people only CAN (and most definitely WILL) inflict harm on anybody, especially the uninitiated...I had several unpleasant experiences in the "friendship" field, so I dropped it altogether several years ago.
I grew rapidly wise to the weird online fauna: pretenders, mind players, benders, braggarts, liars, quacks and a vast array of psychotherapy rejects.
I never believed in any clique and in fact I started being banned as soon as I started visiting forums around 2001.
My deeply philosophical conclusion: I am not a licensed psychotherapist and some people need therapy but are just too cheap to seek some, thus resort to the internet, which is virtually free.

Cliques are ten times worse than individual 'funny' people or outright keyboard sociopaths...these packs of rejects do develop the most sinister and bizarre manic compulsions...
One clique went as far as reaching self-identification with some lame-a$$ telepicture about WWII: "band of brothers"...and their gospel was named "the tablets of stone"...then you shake your head when you read Hitler and Stalin were madmen.
Sure, Stalin adopted Superman's nickname (man of steel) to make up for an unimpressive Ioseb Besarionis dze Jughashvili, but hell, we can make allowance for a man like him (and Lenin, Trotsky etc ).
If a Ioseb Besarionis dze Jughashvili thinks he's a "man of steel", I can see he has some problems but how many Stalin can you count?
When some dirty quack living in a trailer or telemarketing trash starts developing the same personality as a Stalin, it's the lowest of the low.

[jackson]

You claim to be some expert in mathematics but your behaviour disproves it.

There's no "mathematics expert" behavior. I am a cited parsing theory and practice expert. That's not a claim, that's an historical oddity.

[ham]

There's no "mathematics expert" behavior. I am a cited parsing theory and practice expert. That's not a claim, that's an historical oddity.

whatever.
Your behaviour disproves it.
You should NOT have been so gullible...
I repeat I had been, too, but in different circumstances and it did not take me years to understand...